it's that time of year again!

the time when most of us think of what our new year's resolutions are going to be. most of my new ones will actually be old ones that i didn't stick to from 2005. i think i only completed one. better than previous years though. ;)

2005 resolutions
1. learn to play the guitar.
(this one will have to be carried over. i want to learn how to play so badly. i just love the guitar. it's acoustic, but what better way to learn. spend way too much time on the computer though...will have to cut that out)
2. learn to speak & write french.
(i'm actually doing pretty good on this one, probably cause i use the computer to learn. about.com is a great place if you want to learn a language. they have alot of lessons to help you. my dad keeps bitching at me about this one though, saying i should learn spanish. it will help me in the workfield, blah, blah, blah. but, honestly, if that's one of the requirements for getting a job in america then i don't want it, french included. i'm learning for the joy. it sounds so beautiful. one time i was listening to a french station on internet radio and this commercial came on and i didn't understand what they were talking about, but it was so beautiful. at the end of the commercial though they said in english about recycling your garbage. i mean, if a language can make garbage sound beautiful it can make anything sound great.)
3. get license.
(i actually completed this one. got it on march 15th. am so happy too. i love driving. not so much on the highways, they go 70 here!! but learning.)
4. get healthier.
(it always used to be "lose weight" and that never worked out so i decided to go with "get healthier", since it's not just putting emphasis on losing weight but a full mind, body and soul workover. it's working too! while i still eat pizza and snacks like they are the last foods on earth, i have lost a few pounds!! i started doing yoga too! i love it! it's so easy to do and while you are doing it, you don't even realize how it's helping. if you go to self.com you can get this yoga ab exercises and they are great! i was doing them for awhile, then quit for some reason but am doing them again. i do them 3 days a week and started last monday. it takes like 30 mins to do the set and the time just flies by. and, seriously, i cannot stress this enough...it really doesn't feel like exercising. well...the next day, i woke up and my stomach felt like i did like 1,000 sit-ups. you know how your stomach muscles just feel like ouch and when you laugh it hurts. that's how i felt. by wednesday i was good to do the set again. it really works and once again, does not feel like exercise. try it!! go to self.com and look for yoga/ab exercises. they usually have pics of the exerciser and she is wearing all white. hope you can find it. also...when i use to do sit-ups they use to kill my back and i can do this yoga set with no harm to my back and you are on your back for 4 of the 10 exercises. that's truth that it works!!)
5. get organized.
(i'm gonna cross this one because i'm as organized as i can possibly get. while it wouldn't work with most peoples' standards and would most likely horrify the designers from the show "mission organization" (good show, by the way), it works for me and yes, i know where everything is in my room. so...goodbye to number 5!!)
6. be able to do a handstand.
(this is a quirky one of mine. i would just love to be able to do this. maybe if i actually stick to the yoga all the way to the end of 2006 i will be able to do this. have to stick w/ the yoga.)

ok...those were my resolutions for 2005. and, i completed 2 out of 6. that's good, for me anyway. got think about 2006 now. will post those when i have them figured out. ciao!!

Merry Christmas!!

hello all!! hope everyone had a great Christmas day!! i certainly did. it was very peaceful and nice here. we had so much food to eat and it was all so good. it was strange at first cause when i first woke up it was pouring rain outside. that's not suppose to be. i don't care for snow but we should at least have it on Christmas day. but...then at around 2pm snow started coming into the mix and by 3pm it was full on snowing. very cool!! of course, it didn't stick much because it was too wet outside but it was still nice to see it coming down. my mom invited her friend over so that was nice. my brother brought a mini hand-held camcorder awhile ago so we were able to tape the festivities going on. i did a mini tour of our house and what everyone was doing to enjoy the holiday; including the cats, who were just lounging. now, i am just relaxing...too much good food. so...that's about it. but, what else do you need besides family, friends, presents and food on Christmas day? nothing. so...hope you all had a nice Christmas or whatever holiday you represent!! ciao!

things are looking up...maybe

"today, everything you hoped for will be within sight. it won't be much longer now."<--- that is my horroscope for today. i read my horroscope almost everyday and while most of the times, i just roll my eyes and think how no matter how i bend this it's never going to mean anything to me...this one seemed to jump right off the screen. like it was meant for me. finally...instead of having to climb another mountain or jump another hurdle...something good is gonna come my way! maybe my dream job or my soulmate. maybe i'll finally meet him. ooh...i'm happy and excited. and, i don't think i was ever excited over my horroscope before. okay...cannot think about this 'cause if it does turn out to be a horroscope that had nothing to do with me...i won't be happy anymore. man am i cynical. that's from living in new jersey for 21 years. gotta think happy thoughts. ciao!! :)

the first fall of winter

no...not snowfall. we already got that...many times. i'm talking the first, and hopefully last, busting your ass (fall) of winter. which just happened to me. i went outside to get the morning paper and we have a little deck w/ 2 steps. i walked down the steps...they seemed a little icy but not bad. then...as i go to step off the last step onto the concrete below...there i go. my foot doesn't stop...it just keeps sliding away. i did a 180. banged my right leg...which instanly got a huge bump and bruise...my right hand is completely red and of course i busted my ass, by landing on it. but...if that wasn't bad enough. on the step rail...my brother hung christmas soldiers on each side. somehow...on my way down it got knocked off and as i was laying on the ground...it fell down and hit me on my left ear. isn't that just lovely? luckily my dad heard the commotion and ran out to help me. he needed 2 hands to help me up 'cause it was so icy, it was like trying to stand up from a sitting position w/ rollerblades on. i just kept sliding. it happened so quickly too. the concrete didn't even look like ice...just a slight layer of snow. so...like i said, hopefully that will be my last fall of winter. be careful out there people. winter is definitely here. ciao!!

all you need is color

hello! i've decided to choose a new template for the blog as you can see. the old one was getting a little too dark for me. and...since everything is so grey outside i figured i'd bring a little color to my blog. part of me loves winter...the pureness and beauty of fresh fallen snow and the christmas lights hung on almost every house shining brightly. and then there is the part that hates winter...where the sky seems to seemlessly blend in with the ground and all is one. one grey blob. that part i can definitely live without. but, since i can't do anything about the latter, i will just make the rest of my life, indoors and outdoors a little more colorful. ciao!!

what color is your heart?

Your Heart Is Purple

For you, love is about establishing and developing a deep connection. If it's true love, it brings you more wisdom and inner strength. Your flirting style: Sincere Your lucky first date: An afternoon at a tea house Your dream lover: Is both thoughtful and expressive What you bring to relationships: Understanding

What Color Heart Do You Have?

happy december!

well...december is in full swing!! Christmas decorations are everywhere!! where i live they have a hardware store and they set up a bunch of trees w/ different themes and they are decorated so beautifully. one is western w/ the cowboy boots, ocean w/ hibiscus flowers, dolphins and leis and they even have a jack daniels one. really nice. they have more, but i can't remember them all. snow is on the ground and the weather has dipped to a bone-chilling 2 degress w/ a wind chill factor of -12 degress. too too cold. i know i sound like the weather channel but i'm kinda obsessed w/ it. can watch it for hours. sad...i know. sometimes there really isn't anything better on. or...i'll have the weather channel on but the tv muted and just have my stereo on. ok...why am i admitting this? anyway...is everyone ready for the upcoming holidays. whether you observe Christmas, Hanukkah or Kwanzaa, the holidays are so stressful. shopping in the dead of winter feeling like you want to die 'cause you have a cold and then having to go home, decorate the house, wrap the presents and cook for your giant family who mostly get into a big fight and are ungrateful. thank God my family is small...no fights. so...have a nice december and stay stressless. ciao!!

hooray hooray i am happy today

i won a bottle of lotion!!! how exciting is that?!?!? okay...not really i know, but in the e-mail i got it said i can keep trying. so i might win more than one and that would be exciting! right? yes...yes it will. ciao!!

12 hours and counting...

i have been up for 12 hours. it's 5am and i'm tired. no surprise there, but i have to stay up for at least 2 more hours so i can take my dad to work. thank God he only works down the road. having a delicious cup of coffee to stay awake. at least i can go back to sleep when i get home. nice, comfy bed...hmmm...sounds good. well...gotta find something to do. ciao!!

happy thanksgiving!

difference is the '!'...last post '?'. didn't know if thanksgiving was going to be good 'cause of burn on finger, but it felt alot better once i woke up. didn't get to bed until like 7:30am 'cause i had to keep it in water and can't sleep with finger in water. the water would be everywhere. so, in the end, i turned out to have a great thanksgiving day. the turkey was juicy, the stuffing was stuffing and all the rest of the sides were great as well. hope you all have a great and safe thanksgiving day! ciao!

happy thanksgiving?

yes...thanksgiving...that time of the year that can only be described as the calm before the storm. the day before "black friday"...the real start of the christmas shopping rush. the day where the holiday baking scents start to whaff through the air. pumpkin pie...apple pie...stuffing...and, of course...the turkey. and, don't forget the scent of holiday candles. vanilla, cinnamon, pine and the various holiday food smells. the day where you can't help but have to use the oven to do your baking and cook the turkey. the day that, for me, has become a cooking no-no. for you see...while putting in a cupcake pan of leftover pumpkin pie batter...i burnt the tip of my ring finger on my right hand on the oven rack. just lovely. and, of course you know you can't go near anything real hot, like an oven w/ a burnt finger. luckily...my mom always takes care of the turkey and all the sides. but, i always help out and can't really 'cause i'm at the point where i have to keep my finger almost constantly in a very cold glass of water. i really can't do shit w/ my right hand. i'm right handed by the way. so, now i have to almost do everything w/ my left hand, including typing this post and using the mouse. very difficult...especially the mouse part. hopefully...whenever i get to sleep and wake back up...it won't hurt anymore. hope you all have a good thanksgiving!!! have fun stuffing your faces...it is officially the start of the holiday season!! ciao!!

something you don't hear or see everyday

jennifer aniston has been voted "man of the year" by gq magazine. um...am i the only one finding this weird? maybe this is why brad left her. who knows. just very weird. i know if i was an actress...i wouldn't be happy with that title at all.

fox sucks

fox...the sucky channel has decided to become even more suckier by cancelling "arrested development". why oh why must they cancel almost every good show that ever happened to the channel? can someone please answer that? it's like one of those unsolved mysteries of the universe. here are some other things that baffle me about fox.

1. "that 70's show"---i do really like that show, but i was amazed when i heard that the season premiere was coming up. i thought it was gone already. and, the fact that eric and soon kelso will be gone...hello? this show is based on a kid (eric) and his friends...with eric gone, is it really going to survive a whole season?

2. "futurama"---really, really great show. it was done by the creator of "the simpsons" for God sakes. why cancel that?

3. "prison break"---ok...to be honest...i never saw this show, but do we really need another drama? no...we don't.

i think that's it...i don't really have the time to waste thinking how they screwed up...but, you get my point. they have to bring "arrested development" back!!!!! ciao!

crazy weather

there is a cartoon on nickelodeon called "hey arnold". in one episode...one of the characters was trying to grow a pumpkin to enter into some contest. as they are showing him tending to the pumpkin in the garden...you see snow, thunderstorms, rain, drought, cold, heat...basically every type of weather you can think of. he says something about how unusual the weather has been and his grandfather replies something along the lines that it's happened all in one week. you, of course, laugh 'cause its so ridiculous that all that weather can happen in just one week...until now. it's a high of 64 today w/ thunderstorms and possibly tornadoes...tonite. that's right...this might be my last post...but, hopefully not. then tomorrow and thursday...they are predicting snow. and, later this week...we are scheduled to have a low of 21. this weather is crazy and i just keep thinking of that cartoon. all in one week. ciao!!

2 hours

that is how long it approximately takes me to tweeze my eyebrows. 2 hours out of my life every single month. i hate doing that...really, really hate it. and, i'm not sure if i want to go down the wax road again. my friends' mother used a wax strip on my eyebrows once and since the skin is so thin and sensitive there...a layer of skin came with the unwanted hairs. i had red splotchy marks and it hurt so bad. when the skin started growing back...it was the worse. it was all dry and when i went to put lotion on...it burned. just horrible. i seriously hate tweezing them though. they never, ever turn out the way i want. one time...i tweezed them so much...i had to shave them off and pencil them on. i suck at tweezing. more so than i am at cutting my hair. i just wonder...you know how they have those fake eyelashes? why don't they have fake eyebrows? i'd wear them...i've even thought of getting them tattooed on. that might be a little painful though. i guess i will just have to waste 2 hours every single month until something alot less painful comes along. ciao!!

kate is back

kate moss is back! after a stint at a rehab center, she is now back to doing what she does best...modeling! in the picture...she is modeling for 2006 spring/summer line for roberto cavalli and will start to pop up in magazines early next year. i'm so happy for her! go kate!!

time for a change---pt. 2

i just re-read my post "time for a change" and how money-hungry, lazy, chronic hair-dying and just plain semi-crazy i came out. nothing can be farther from the truth, except the chronic hair-dying thing. it's my obsession. what can i say? hair-dye is the cheapest thing you can do to change your whole look. next to tweezing your eyebrows. but...i'm better at dying my hair.

so...i'm not at all as money-hungry as i sound. i would never, ever date or even marry a man for just his money. that's not love. that's just greed. and i'm definitely not greedy. just ask my family...i'm constantly doing favors for them (and asking nothing in return, but if they offer...i usually take it). it just makes life easier...in a way. but...it definitely wouldn't determine my love for someone...especially if we were soul mates. we could be living in a studio apartment, sleeping on the floor, cold as hell and it would be heaven 'cause it would be the man i was meant to be with. now...that's love.

and...when i say i'm lazy...it mostly means that i have a shit-load of stuff to do and just put it off until last minute. like now. i have to load the dishwasher, wash the stuff i can't put in the dishwasher by hand, clean the stove and fold clothes. this will all be done within 1/2 hour of me going to sleep...last minute. maybe it's not even laziness, but oh...can't think of the word. begins with a "p"...oh damn...pro-something. had to go ask mom. PROCRASTINATION!!! yep...that's it. all i could think of was "protaganist" and i knew that definitely wasn't it. so...i'm not lazy (all the time), i'm just a procrastinator.

so there it is...pt. 2. ciao!!

music question

i'm listening to "sympathy for the devil" by the stones and you know how they keep going "woo-hoo" throughout the song. of course you do. does anyone know how many times they actually do it? i've tried counting a few times and i always get a different number and can't seem to find it on-line. if anyone knows...please tell me!! thanks! ciao!! :)

time for a change

i decided to make november my month of change. seriously. maybe. well, i'll try to anyway. i'm 26 and i still have no clue what i want to do for the rest of my life. here's my list of possible job choices:

1. be a wife to a wonderful, rich (money and culture) guy...really, really rich...
2. something in the art field (love, love, love painting, drawing, creating & i'm really good at it)
3. something in the music field (can't live w/out...i'm listening to music as i write this...ironically the song is "money" by pink floyd. gotta love money...the song too :)...)
4. bartender (for some reason...i have always wanted to do that...eventhough i can't drink...which i guess would be good for job reasons)
5. possibly a teacher (hey...at least i'd get the summer off)
6. psychiatrist (although i probably need one more than becoming one, but i am a great listener)
7. chronic prayer and pray that someone i know and love alot, really alot wins the lottery.


i think that's it. okay the truth is i want a job that's easy and w/ really good pay. i'm lazy. too lazy. i'm a libra after all. don't hold it against me. maybe i should change that...but those are job things that i would be happy, really happy with. i don't see myself being an accountant...too many numbers and i am so not good at math. or a lawyer...too much learning. or a doctor...blood makes me queasy. so...we'll see. i do have a couple of months to decide.

also...i want to start exercising more and eating a little bit healthier. i actually have tried yoga and i loved it...started to really see results and then quit. don't ask why. i tend to do that. gotta keep going. and i can't help but eat more than 2 chocolate chip cookies when the damn bag is opened in front of me. (like my mom says..."gotta love those elves!") amen to that!

gotta find a hair color and stick with it before my hair falls out. for the first time of dying my hair for the past 14 years it felt real dry. not good. maybe it was because i dyed it 3 times in a month, but either way...i need my hair. don't love it...was really long...couldn't stand it so i cut my hair myself and gave myself layers and now my hair just looks like shit!!!! (i suggest if you don't know how to cut hair...definitely don't do your own.) so i'm trying to grow it out and deciding do i want to keep the black or go blonde, brown or maybe red. choices...i hate making them.

gotta try and get out more in hopes that i find my soul mate...he's out there somewhere, i know it. and, my parents are convinced he's just not gonna knock on my door and profess his love for me. being out of work for a year can really make you a homebody. it's not like i never go out...i go shopping and to the mall for more shopping and to the movies...but he's not there. so...i have to start going to other places like...the museum and cafes around town. i'm starting to think w/ places i want to go...instead of finding a rich, cultural person, i'm gonna find a slacker artist. hmm...but, if we are meant to be, so be it. and, w/ my list of job choices...i will most likely be a slacker artist myself...it's kismet!!

so...november is my month of change. hope you all have a great month and i will post my progress. ciao!!

happy halloween!

happy halloween everyone! this is one of my favorite holidays. so spooky and you gotta love the colors. i have my room painted a medium purple and hung amber (orange) lights around the room and it's soooo beautiful. those colors are so nice together. and in the living room we have purple, green and orange lights hung up. it really creates such a nice glow at night. so everyone, have fun, get alot of candy and be safe!! ciao!!

sylvie update

sorry i haven't posted much. living out in the country not alot of things happen so not alot of posts. celebrated my b-day this past friday...it was quiet but fun! got lots of cash which is always good. my mom made an angel food cake for my birthday and it was so damn good. the whole thing was eaten in one nite. so yummy!! let's see, what else. the leaves changing color are in full effect...so beautiful! and the ladybugs didn't last very long. they are already gone, most likely 'cause it got so cold here so damn fast. so not ready for winter and i was so pissed to see that my warm place that i would flee to (houston) was going to be in the 30s. heck, that's what we are facing too. is there no more warm places left? so sad. that's all for now.

note for all you people who think country living is great: it's not!!! it's for people who don't like or want contact with social situations. if you love that then the country is great for you. other people stay where you are. the grass is not greener on the other side. believe me...i know.

something about luck

You Are Balanced - Realist - Powerful

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally. You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go. Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control. Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. When it comes to who's in charge, it's you. Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler. You don't care much about what others think. But they better care what you think!

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

happy birthday to me

Your Birthdate: October 21

Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

ladybug paradise

well you know it's october when you step outside and see about a hundred ladybugs everywhere you look. they are literally everywhere, on the doors, the car and all over the tree, especially the leaves. i absolutely love it. although i didn't like it when i had one crawling up my leg...a little creepy. other than that it's ladybug paradise. so cool! i love fall!!

i hate feeling sick

you know how in the bible or in dante's book they talk about purgatory? kinda like the waiting room after you die and you're not really sure if you're going to heaven or hell. or, like in beetlejuice for people who really have no idea what i mean. well...for the past couple of days i have been going through what i like to call "purgatory sickness". not really sick...not really well. you're shaking because you're starving but feel like you're full and might puke if you take a sip of water. lovely, right? no...of course not! it's horrible...it's like i don't want to be sick, but i would appreciate it if my body would just make up it's mind. do you want me to be ill or not? let's go with not! of course, i kinda blame the weather...it's in the 80s all day which means a/c and then drops to the upper 40s at nite and then you need the heat. so your body temperature doesn't know whether to warm up or cool down. i also kinda blame the "flu committee", whatever the hell they're called. ever since the first day of fall all you keep reading about in all of the store papers that come with the sunday paper is: "are you ready for the flu?" um...no.

a few years back...i had to call out of work a couple of days before christmas because i had the flu and got yelled at by my now former boss who said "i would most definitely be working next christmas!" yeah, sorry i couldn't come to work and get everyone sick...i really tried but everytime i tried to stand i would fall back down...damn me for being weak and sick. i mean...i know it's busy during christmas season but to yell at someone because they had the flu is just ridiculous. he even told me my co-workers were mad at me, which wasn't even true...pathetic. so...last year during mid-october i gave my boss 6 1/2 weeks notice...alot i know...but i just wanted to make sure they had someone for the christmas season. i'm nice like that.

but...ever since i got yelled at for having the flu...i have this irrational fear of the flu. call it flu-phobia. i use to try and look on the bright side of the flu, like you lose a few pounds with all the puking...weird i know...but i always get it in the stomach and that's all i do is puke during the flu...so gotta try to look on that bright side. didn't get it last year 'cause i wasn't working and didn't have to be around all the sickies. thank God!! and i wish i could say i don't have to work this season but i have been out of work for almost a year and desperatly need money. so...flu shot this year. i hate needles but hate the flu more. ok...this is really, really long so i will wrap it up now...here's to a healthy non-flu season! cheers!! :)

happy october!!

it's finally october!! i love this month...mainly because my birthday falls in this month but also 'cause there's so much going on in october! it's also happens to be the month of my parents' anniversary, grandma h's birthday, halloween and as my friend told me today, her sons' christening. yes...busy month. but, most importantly beautiful month...fall is in full swing and trees should mostly be shades of orange, yellow and red now. should be...but according to the lovely weather channel we still have 3 days of upper 80s weather to go through. it's october dammit...no more 80s...bring on the cooler weather...not cold...just cooler. i am so not ready for winter yet. :P yuck! so...happy october everyone!!

it's perfect!

right now...it's perfect. what you may ask? well...everything...it just seems perfect. i absolutely love the rain and it has been raining constantly for the past 5 hours or so. it's beautiful sounding and so peaceful. earlier i was lying on my bed, drinking coffee and watching tv and during the commercials i would mute out the tv and just listen to the rain and it was perfect. these are the moments that make up life. right now...i'm on the computer (obviously) and my cat is just laying on the desk like usual and just chilling...it's perfect. and, of course, it's still raining. perfect!

britneys' new fragrance

britney spears has a new fragrance coming out called 'fantasy' and of course with a new fragrance you need a new commercial. i saw it the other day and well, while i don't really care for britney i thought the video was really cute up until the last part. here goes:

britney and kevin are in a forest and while he is looking for her, she is up in a tree. when he walks past the tree it shows that she or he carved 'britney + kevin in a heart'. after he walks by she jumps down and starts running. he then notices and starts running after her and they are like sparkles just everywhere...really cute. she starts to talk about how he loves her and doesn't want to lose her 'cause she will be leaving soon to go on tour...just then he shoots her with an arrow and then they hug.

the part that isn't cute at all is that when they are embracing she turns her back to the camera...the arrow that he hits her with looks like a plunger. it's stuck to her back. a plunger...that's so not sexy. so...her fantasy is to be in the woods with kevin and have him stick a plunger to her back? very strange!

kate moss' scandal

kate moss---burberry ad



poor kate was caught in a drug scandal! she is one of my favorite models and since i have seen the pictures on the net, i'm not in denial anymore. i have said it before, not here, and i will say it again...she needs to drop that loser boyfriend of hers. i have never, even heard of him or his band until they hooked up. he's obviously using her to get in the spotlight and gain attention to his band. now i'm not saying this is all his fault and we all know that kate is a partier, but...i have been a fan of hers since she basically started and while she has done alot of crazy-model things, she has never been in a 'drug scandal'. so i do partially blame him...but she does need to get a brain and drop him!! she can do sooooo much better, she does not need this loser drug addict dragging her down. she's so pretty...it's sad to see this happen to her...she's a great model!

keane

right now...i'm totally loving the band keane. they rock! i brought their cd...yes, i actually went to the store and bought a cd instead of downloading it. cds still exist, shocking but true. anyway...i had to have their cd even after hearing only one song. i promised i would never do that again but i just had a feeling that it was going to be great and it is!! i hope they plan on putting out more cds. you don't hear much about them as much as you do coldplay, but i think they just might be better than coldplay. its very rare for me to buy a cd from a relatively unknown band and like every song but keane has restored my faith in the relatively unknown band. great band...go listen!!

name of blog

hey! changed the name of the blog. i figured this title is a little more fitting to what my living situation is right now. for the record it was "*silver stars in the sky*". i love that title but it just doesn't say much about the blog. so now its "sylvie in the country". very true!

today

dyed my hair today...it really needed it too. as i said before my current hair color is black and i'm not really sure what my natural color is anymore. i have been dying it for about 13 years now, but i think it's like a light brown, dark blonde...in that family. anyways...my roots, especially near the front of my forehead looked like a white blonde almost. and, can't believe i am going to put this down but, my roots were like an inch long. so my hair was black with light brown roots and strands of white blonde and some red, for some reason. horrible!! had to dye it. it looks really nice now...totally black! not a drop of any other color. had to share...bye!

music videos

hey! i was watching music videos early yesterday morning on vh1, which i don't do alot because the seem to play the same ones over and over again, but i turn in every couple of months when i know new ones will be on and saw 3 i really liked.

1. dave matthews band--'dream girl': really cute video staring julia roberts who seems to be dreaming. i don't really care for the song...but the video is done really well. dave matthews is in a movie theater watching the video and he makes the cutest face when him and julia are about to kiss and just before they do...she wakes up. he's all start to get a big smile on his face and it just slowly fades...cute.

2. sheryl crow--'good is good': great video...i don't know who directed it but it's awesome. it's like black & white with some color thrown in and the images just keep changing throughout the video. you have to check it out...it's beautiful. i really like the song too.

3. missy elliot--'lose control': i'm not a big fan of rap music, but i always love her videos. there are always so entertaining and the music is really good too. i can't wait for her next one...you know it's going to be good.

well, that's it. check them out if you haven't already. bye!

washing dishes

sometimes i really hate washing dishes. like now for instance. still have a bad-ass headache from lack-of coffee. there are times where i'm like fine with washing dishes and other times i just stand in front of the sink staring at the dishes maybe hoping that if i stare long enough they will just wash themselves or disappear. don't waste your time...never happens. so, i gotta wash them myself. then another tea and off to bed with me! bye!

i have a confession...

hello! my name is chandra and i'm addicted to caffeine. mainly coffee. it's more of a dependency to coffee than it is an addiction. like i don't get shaky and freak out if i don't have it. i didn't have any yesterday and today woke up with a massive sinus headache. my brow hurted so badly that i couldn't even move my eyes without wincing in pain. it sucked. if someone wanted me to look at something...i had to turn completely around. it was horrible! thank God i love coffee 'cause i obviously cannot quit. well...i can...but then i would be in pain and that would suck so i won't quit. hell...i quit smoking and that was bad enough. honestly it wasn't that bad, didn't want to quit but was forced by nature. i never got used to the change in elevation going from 72ft. to 772ft. and everytime i smoked i would get real dizzy and light-headed. not fun! and, yes, it was just cigarettes. so, now my only vice is coffee and it turns out coffee is actually good for you! ha ha take that all you people who said coffee was bad for me! it's not and i'm probably going to live longer 'cause of my love for coffee...tea too! probably the only 2 things i drink constantly. favorite tea is 'celestial seasonings madagascar vanilla red'...absolutely perfect...mmm!! going to have one now!! bye!!

who's the true you?

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend whatever you have.

You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.

Who's the True You?

love this pic...it's from an ad.

it had to be done

i had to turn on the word verification thing after i got 7 comments on one post in like less than a minute. only 1 was from a real person. thanks for posting by the way. so to prevent anymore comment spam...it had to be done. i got so happy too 'cause i've been waiting to see what people were going to write about the whole soul mate thing. robots didn't say a thing, but i got alot of offers. ; ) so for now on...gotta type the little code out. bye!

the worst has happened (to me)

before i tell you what the worst thing that could happen to me happened, i have to go back a few years. 5 1/2 years ago i lived in a small town in new jersey. the town was 4.4 square miles, so you could easily walk to the store, school, job, friends' house and families' house. basically if it was in the town, you could walk there. which i did...alot. i didn't have a license until i got one here at the age of 25 'cause i didn't need one there. i was younger there and felt more independence than i have in the past 5 1/2 years since we moved here. and it's not like my parents gave me hell for having to drive me to work, it's just i felt like hell needing a ride for someone. i was use to walking everywhere by myself. i was use to being able to leave the house and go to the store when i felt like it. now, i couldn't. why? 'cause in driving time we are about 10-20 mins. away from any store. and that's going 50-60 mph. so, walking would take a few hours. yes, unfortunately, we live in the country. i hate it here. i know some people dream of living in the country but for a suburbanite/city loving girl like myself, i'm dying inside. the noise of the millions of bugs on a summer nite is enough to drive you crazy. thank God our house is always noisy from tv or radio. i'm actually closer to the airport than i am to a store, a bus line or a taxi service. does that make sense to you? it really doesn't to me. it's now easier for me to just jump on a plane and fly away from the hell that is the country. but, unfortunately i have no money. and no way to make some. if you haven't guessed what's the worst thing that could happen to me is, i'll tell you. our only way out of the country, into normal civilization, our car, died. there was a leak in the radiator, so my dad put some stuff in there to stop it and now there is no water going to the engine to keep it cooled down. so, at any point in one of our past trips to the store, the car could've just seized up. we are so lucky that we got stuck here instead of someplace far away 'cause i'm sure the taxi cost would be through the roof. to let you know how much trouble we could've been in, last thursday my mom, brother and i went all the way up north (30 min drive on the highway going 70 mph) to our favorite japanese restaurant and then to the grocery store. on the way home, my mom, who was driving, asked us if our stomachs felt okay 'cause hers was feeling super hot. we just said no, but later on sunday realized that it was the heat from the engine on her stomach. we would've been in so much shit if the car seized up that far away from home. it's not like we even know anybody that we could've called up for a ride home. it just sucks big time. so, now we are stuck in the house until my parents can save up some money to get another car. they've already done the new car thing and rather get a used one. at least my dad can get to work, he works at the airport which is like i said, basically right across the street. we are going to rent a car once a month to get groceries and stuff like that, but it stills sucks. what else can go wrong in my life? my little definition under the title of the page says "loving life"...maybe i should change it 'cause i'm not loving it now.

let's do some deep thinking

yep! i decided to add a pole to the blog and it's one that kinda brings up some deep thinking. "do you believe in soul mates?" i personally do. i just know deep in my heart and soul that there is "the one" out there for me and i for him. but, of course every now or then since i haven't found him yet or he hasn't come to me yet, i start to do some deep thinking and wonder if i really do believe or do i just say i believe to keep myself from falling into a deep depression 'cause i don't have "the one" for me just yet. or anyone for that matter. i hope you understood that. i even make little jokes like "he's probably dead or foreign", when i wonder why we haven't meet yet. then my friends and mom just roll their eyes at me when i say that. it's sad, but it could be true. who knows? so, i started to wonder about just how many people out there believe in them. so, if you don't mind, take the poll and feel free to comment about whether you do or don't or if you found them and how you felt when you knew that that person was "the one" for you.

happy labor day

happy labor day ya'll!! i'm not southern, but that just sounds good when you say it out loud. try it! we will be having a barbecue later on!! i just love barbecues. well, food in general. lol one time i wrote this poem about this girl i knew and its about her love of food, 'cause believe me this girl loved food. i heard later on that she lost alot of weight, which is really good. anyway, since it's a holiday, i'm going to share the poem with you. it's really funny. i honestly cannot read it without laughing hysterically. enjoy!

Food is Good, Food is Great

Everytime I walk in someone's kitchen

I can't resist my dying urge

to grab a bite to eat!

It can't be some crackers, oh no

It can't even be an apple

It has to be like a dinner every hour of the day

Whether breakfast, lunch, dinner or even a snack

I want something big with a lot of fat!

Don't give me just a chicken leg, heavens no!

I want the whole damn chicken.

And not just the chicken...I want some

buttered rolls and a tub of ice cream.

Some people say this is bad, but I don't think so

I just look at them and say...

"Food is Good, Food is Great!"

c. gilbert :)

so, on that note, enjoy the holiday and the food. ;)

hurricane katrina pt. 2

i have put a new link into the links section for the red cross just incase anyone that comes across this would like to find out how they can help the victims of hurricane katrina. it's truly, truly sad what happened in the gulf and what i find sadder is how everyone seems to be blaming other people for it. christian groups are blaming gays and people who have abortions, democrats are blaming republicans, republicans are blaming democrats and so on. while i do believe that the national guard and fema should have been prepared or at the least gotten things ready. and you cannot use that lame ass excuse as "we had no phone contact". true, but i'm sure you had a television and i'm sure that you had at least come across the weather channel or the weather report on your local news station about it coming. we all knew it was coming and we all knew it was going to be a bad one. why do you think they kept comparing it to hurricane camille that happened like 30 some years ago? they just weren't prepared or just didn't care. they didn't care that most of the people that are stranded in new orleans now, almost a week since it happened, are poor people. i'm so sick of hearing that it's a white/black thing. it's not, it's a poor/rich thing. the rich got out, 'cause they had the money to. the poor didn't have the money and so couldn't leave. they have a parking lot full of school buses now underwater that they could've used to move these people out, but didn't. it's horrible what happened and while i and most people can go on ranting about what should've been done, we all need to start putting this energy into getting help to all the victims and rebuilding the gulf coast. where i live (indiana), there are alot of collection places and stores helping out and i'm sure there is alot going on to help where you live. i say this to all of you ranters (myself included) let's not worry about who is or isn't to blame, it's mother nature and it's unpredictable and let's start worrying about the victims of the gulf coast. they need our help more now than ever before. i feel for you all and i hope real soon you can get back to a normal state of life. i can't even imagine going through something like that. it's horrible, but help is out there, keep your heads held high. only good things can happen now!

sorry

i'd like to apologize about my post "charity begins at home" critizing other countries for not offering their help when we always help them at a time of crisis. it seems that other countries have offered their help, but for some reason the u.s. has declined offers for now and might take them up later. so i apologize and i thank you all for your help.

happy september

hello all and happy september!! fall is right around the corner and that means that soon the leaves will change colors and be crunching underfoot (love that sound). just 21 days away! while i do love summer and spring, definitely not winter, autumn has got to be my favorite season. it has halloween, birthday, parents' anniversary (which is halloween), other family birthdays. busy season, but so so beautiful. i live close to what you would call the midwest now (indiana) and the thing i miss the most about where i came from (new jersey) is when all the leaves changed colors. there is nothing i liked more than walking around town on a crisp autumn evening and all the beautiful colors of the leaves everywhere you looked. it was just so simple and beautiful, more perfect if there was a full moon out. oh, how i miss that. i have lived here 5 years now and for some reason cannot get used to it here. i try, but i guess there really is no place like home. i wrote about it one time and on sept. 11th i will share that story with you all. hopefully it will help some of you who are thinking of leaving your hometown. so to end this on a lighter note, i hope you all have a happy september and a happy autumn!! bye!

charity begins at home

i don't want to seem mean, but i have been watching alot of coverage about hurricane katrina and the damage that it has caused and the news people saying "if you want to donate go to....". my question is why isn't any of the countries that we always help when they have problems aren't donating any money to help us? i mean, i'm all for helping people, but i think as americans we need to take a good look and realize that all we have is ourselves. maybe we wouldn't have such money problems in this country or maybe we could build up poorer sections of the country if we didn't help out other countries. we need to stop helping other countries when they don't return the help. if other countries are helping than "thank you". honestly though, i haven't heard a thing.

hurricane katrina

as i was writing my posts about the power outage we had it started to seem like nothing compared to what the people down south are facing, so i just wanted to let you all know that you are most definitely in my thoughts and prayers. i hope you all reach a safe destination before the storm hits and i hope that when it does hit it doesn't cause that much damage to your residences. stay safe!!

power outages pt. 2

so i finally got to sleep at around 5 am and since i love to sleep with my fan on, and couldn't, all i basically did was toss & turn. when i say that i love to sleep with a fan on i mean all-year round. i don't care if it's 17 degress outside, i need my fan on. so with only 4 1/2 hours sleep i woke up to silence. which meant still no electricity 'cause in my family tvs would be blaring. my mom had me call the electric co. and the lady said that there had been an accident and it caused damage to the pole and the wires and the approximate turn-on time would be 1 pm. must of been some hell of an accident. anyway, we (mom, dad and i) decided to play scrabble. and in the middle of the game-hallelujah!-the electricity came back on. 2 hours before the lady said. we managed to finish the game 'cause i knew everyone just wanted to watch tv. mom won like always, but it was still fun. my dad who swears he can live on that pbs series "1890's house" was the first one on the recliner enjoying the benefits of electricity, watching tv. yeah, right dad. so, it didn't turn out to be that bad but i'm sure glad it can back on. electricity is a great thing! bye!

power outages pt. 1

why is it that almost everytime there is a power outage it seems to happen at nite? not in the middle of the day where you can read a book or a magazine or paint or play a game but at nite where you can't do anything but sleep. at nite, hence no lights, where you then go scrambling to find matches, lighters, candles, flashlites and batteries for the radio and possibly the flashlite. and, of course your not use to being in total darkness so you keep walking into things. yep...that's what happened to me last nite @ 3:37 am. just happily on-line when all of a sudden screen goes black and everything else too. lovely. then i panic. it's not that i'm afraid of the dark, it's just all of a sudden you can't see anything. i like knowing that i can turn on a lite if i need to. and, there's none until i trip my way into my room & feel for my lighter and candle. thank God i always leave those 2 items in the same exact spot. so in short or long (turned out to be pretty long) power outages need to start happening more in the day time or not at all and they most definitely suck. bye!

new word? and blogs

i think i might have come up with a new word. bloghopping. its like when you go from blog to blog checking out what's going on in the world. it's basically what got me to start my own blog. i thought "how cool! a place to write my thoughts and opinions on things i like". and like i said in my first post, there are so many interesting blogs out there. you really get to understand that most people out there in the world are so much like yourself and yet different at the same time. i think it's a great way to learn about other cultures too. also, there are alot of celebrity gossip blogs which are so good it's almost like reading an issue of us weekly or watching an episode of best week ever, which by the way cannot wait 'til it comes back on. sept. 16th for anyone else who wanted to know. they have really got me interested in celeb gossip, which i never knew how much i liked until this whole bloghopping thing started. ok, gotta go. my cat wants to play fetch. bye!

friday nite

i don't think anything says good friday nite like new-york style pizza or good live music. i was lucky enough to get both tonite at an outdoor mall where i live. my mom, brother and i went to the mall to get pizza and when we came out of the food court a local band was playing. i don't know their name but they were really good. they were doing all cover songs, but at least they sounded good. didn't look bad either from where we standing. :) we had to leave a little early 'cause my brother started complaining there was nowhere to sit and he refused to sit on the ground. it was kinda a good thing though 'cause as we were leaving they started to play "(i can't get no) satisfaction" by the stones in a really slow frank sinatra way. i didn't even realize it was that song until my mom said something and i heard the chorus. other than that one song, they rocked. okay...just decided to look in the paper and the band's name is called "matt sturm band". it was a really nice way to spend a friday nite. hope all of you out there had a nice friday nite too! :)

jen and vince

am i the only one annoyed that almost every site i go on from aol to the uk mag "hello" this headline keeps coming up: "are jen and vince more than just friends?" um...who cares! brad has obviously moved on with his life, so why can't jen? i say more power to her! i know most people probably just want brad and jen to get back together again, but it's not going to happen. they were definitely the most cutest hollywood couple though. and i remember seeing their wedding photo and how happy they both looked, especially jen, and thinking i hope i look that happy when my wedding day comes. it's sad, but jen should be able to move on with her life w/out every reporter wondering if her and vince are just friends. i wish her and vince the best.

gwens* new video

hey! i love the video for gwen stefanis' new song "cool", especially the brown hair she's sporting. she looks absolutely great with brown hair. she should definitely dye her hair that color. it brings so much color and life to her face, it's unbelieveable. it almost makes me want to dye my hair that color. and, believe me, i know a thing or two about hair dye. i'm 25 now and have been dying my hair since i was 11. it's almost an addiction. i have had it every normal shade from ultra light blonde to black, which it currently is now. there are so many people out there in the business with blonde hair. it would be so refreshing to see a change, and if anyone can do it, gwen can. so, gwen, if you happen to come across this, go dye your girl!

new to this

hello all! after reading a couple of blogs here i have decided to start my own. i hope they are as interesting as some of the ones i have read. so like the title says, i am new to this, so please bare with me as i learn to bare my thoughts with the public if they decide to read. enjoy!