5 years later

Today, sadly, marked 5 years since the attack on the United States. 5 years! That is such a long time. It seemed like it just happened yesterday. It still kinda seems like a dream too. More like a nightmare but you know what I mean. I still remember where I was when it happened. I was at work. It was a year and a month since I moved from New Jersey to Indiana. I had also just gotten back from a vacation to New Jersey a few weeks earlier, by plane. I use to live in a small town w/ alot of people in Jersey. Sounds familiar doesn't it. 16 miles southwest of New York City and those Towers. I could actually see them from certain areas from where I lived. I use to stare at them every chance I could, wishing and hoping that one day I would live in that magical city. I wanted to be like those towers in a way...larger than life. Make a name for myself. It's silly I know, but it was my dream. August 21st would be the last day I would see those towers and everyone else I loved in New Jersey. They are all still alive, I'm just so scared to go fly on a plane. Still...5 years later! So, there I was at work and it seemed unreal to me. I just wanted to go home, be with my family. It was the longest 8 hours of my life. When I did get home, I was glued to the tv, just watching over and over again, wondering when I was going to wake up from this horrific nightmare. All those lives...gone. I feel so much for those people that lost loved ones that day from those attacks. I can't imagine what they must have gone through. I even had a nightmare that night. I was in a car with my Mom driving on the overpass in Jersey that we would always have to drive over and it a was spot where you could almost always see the towers. I looked over and said "Stop the car!". She stopped and we both got out, looked over and then a plane went into one of the towers. I woke up sweating and crying. It seemed so real. Even the days that followed seemed surreal. I live pretty close to an airport and not hearing any planes was so scary. Like the world stopped and it did in a way. I hope to God we never have to go through any of that again. I don't want to be scared anymore. I want to be able to go on a plane again and visit my relatives and friends. I can't let them scare me. 5 years later...I'm ready not to be scared. God Bless!