lost

one more post and then off to bed. i'm sooooo lost without my club pogo! my subscription ended today and i don't have the cash to renew. this could be a good thing in disguise though. i did spend way too much on there. and now that i don't have it anymore i might actually get my life in order. hmmm...i'm still lost though. television and online gaming are tickets to a life unlived. you know? you just sit there watching or playing and then you blink and like 5 hours have passed. it's sad. oh well...that's all for now. so tired. good nite!! ciao!!

help!

ok...i'm confused, pissed and a little jealous.

confused because for two days now i have been searching almost every online job finder i can search. i'm not looking for anything big, just a simple receptionist/secretary job. part time or full time...temp. or permanent. but, please tell me why with most of them i need a business degree? i have done this type of work in the past. it's definitely not something you need a degree in. it's simple...very simple. let's put it this way. if i went to a 2 or 4-year college and the only job i could get with my degree is a receptionist/secretary job, i would be majorly pissed!! i would feel like i totally wasted 2 or 4 years of my life and a hell of alot of money.

pissed because of the above. if i have the requirements for the job, i should be able to get said job.

and, a little jealous because i keep hearing about bloggers who are getting very nice book deals from their blog. i shouldn't be jealous but happy but i can't help it. i wish i could get a book deal. not to brag, because i definitely don't like doing that, but i have been told by alot of people that i'm a good writer. maybe i should start writing more. i have ideas...i just need to get them down.

okay...not jealous anymore. i thought about it and realized i shouldn't be jealous over something someone got from working their ass off. i need to remember that good things in life just don't get handed over to someone who doesn't do the work. ciao!!

sorry

sorry for the lack of posts. not much has been going on here. just the usual. still looking for a job. trying to get a secretarial job. i'm a great typer! there is just nothing in the newspapers! i think i'm just going to go to a temp agency for now...just to get my foot in the door. wish me luck!

my brothers b-day just passed. he turned 24! such a busy day. my mom and i just baked and cooked almost all day. it all turned out nice though.

now it is raining. i love the rain! that's it for now. ciao!